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This Blonde Has Goals, How 'Bout You?

I didn't come this far to just come this far

Finally, it is Friday! The holy grail of week days! Although I am working some extra shifts at the restaurant this weekend, I am looking forward to relaxing! I have been precepting at a family practice the last few days, I'll be there until next Friday and then I'll receive my first float assignment! I cannot wait, there are a variety of offices I could be sent to and I am eager to learn! The sky is the limit, I'm looking forward to floating to different specialties and learning from talented providers! This is my favorite part of the medical field, amazing physicians teaching their passions.
Today was the first day was back in the saddle! It was like riding a bike, except for when I introduced myself as a server instead of an MA! ha! It was a memorable moment, one that I'll bring up later when telling people how I got to where I am. This fall I will take an online class that is needed to apply to the nursing program I am interested in. The goal is to apply and be accepted in the spring or summer next year, the sky is the limit! The steps to get into the program are similar to what I already did but it's a good refresher. Earlier this week, I wasn't viewing this as such but I'm feeling grateful that I have a second chance. The medical field is full of ups, downs, codes, policies, and procedures yet I wouldn't change a thing. Today made me realize how much I missed this field, whether it was the hospital floor or the clinical office, these patients are my passion. Hearing about their issues, big or small, and critically thinking to solve it and get that satisfied, reassured smile is what makes us do this everyday. I don't see it as a job, I don't see it as a hassle, it is truly my passion. With renewed motivation, I am prepared to head back into the field with more confidence than I've ever had.
You know, your twenties are about learning about yourself and figuring out what the heck you're supposed to do with the rest of your lives. The amount of pressure I put myself under in the past 5 years has been absolutely ridiculous and I blamed everyone else for it. In actuality, I was unhappy that I'm not where I feel I should be. After 7 years in the medical field, being 3 months away from graduation, and one stupid disease that I let take over my life, I have a renewed hope and strength for the future. God has a plan and knew what he was doing in each part of my life thus far, I trust the Man! He brought people in and out of my life who helped me along the way and taught me something, whether it be good or bad. He brought me to a new city full of opportunities, and he gave me the courage to take on hindrances head on. It would be so easy to let all the negative aspects cloud my vision and I have for a long time, but luckily, I get to refocus and make new goals.
I hope that everyone gets to experience something that makes them have an "ah ha" moment. It really has helped even the last few days, I can only imagine how much more it'll help continuing on. I pray that the weekend comes and stays for a bit to be enjoyed, that Monday won't really be the typical Monday, and that everyone invests their time in themselves just a bit. God bless!

..xobb

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