Blonde, Sweat & Wine

Mental health has never been a "hot topic" or a common dinner conversation, it is usually dusted under the rug and left to fester til another day. Honestly, I'm writing this for my own mental health, rather my sanity. Since this virus took over our lives, being forced to live completely out of the norm has made mental health become a little bit more of a subject but not by much. Being bored and forced to be in the same house almost 24/7 can cause you to focus on things you wouldn't normally think about. This is also true for myself. Up until now, I haven't really discussed with anyone but close friends and family what I have struggled with for a long time. To me, you talk about it and everyone will think you're looney. Well, I'm over it and tired of hiding it so here goes! When I lived in Orlando, I had extremely high anxiety for the first time. I was basically alone full time miles away from my hometown. I tried so desperately to avoid facing what I...

In the last few months, I feel I have changed a lot toward the person I want to be for the rest of my life. I have learned many things the hardest way possible. I have fallen, gotten back up, and even if it has taken more time than I would have liked, I kept going. I learned about myself; my flaws, weaknesses and strengths. I have realized that I am can only be the best version of myself and strive to meet my goals. I have had people strike me down (metaphorically), lift me up, and teach me so many things. Recently, I've changed my career path. Originally, I was heading towards a professional in the health care field and now, I am about a month away from beginning my real estate career. All these things are strange, exciting and nerve racking all at the same time. I've seen the person I could be and have been, and I hate her. I've learned from her and now, I know what I want and how I am going to get it. Will it go perfectly? No, never does. Why? Because I just have the ...