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Seeing the Light at the End of the Tunnel...Almost...

You've all read my story on my dream career and how my educational path didn't go quite the way I wanted it to 4 years ago. Well, as a very stubborn and strong headed woman, I am sick and tired of the almost. As of current, I work as a medical assistant, not a nurse, for a dermatology office. This isn't my dream job and definitely not what I pictured four years ago while I was starting the adult 2 section of nursing school. I had just gotten out of the hospital a few days prior and I was determined to continue on my way to my dream career. I guess what did not know at the time was that I am not in control of my life or the plans for my life.
Well that was then and this is now, as I am taking the appropriate steps on this new educational path I am creating for myself. I was interested a local LPN program recently thinking the best way to get to my goal of becoming an RN would be through bridging to the university here. One mishap after another and a hurricane (thanks Irma) and things didn't fall together as I would have hoped. I spend Friday pretty bummed and was reminded Sunday night that I am just not where I want to be! Today as I was thinking of what I could do before the next LPN semester begins in May, I stepped WAY out of my comfort zone and swallowed my pride at my previous nursing school to see if I would be eligible for readmission. This is a huge thing for me, luckily the advisor remembered me and was so excited that I had chosen to come back and finish. Now I get to wait for the decision of whether or not in January I will continue on this seemingly never ending journey to complete my degree in nursing.

Not knowing is a torture all in itself. Waiting for a decision from a perfect stranger who doesn't know me, my work ethic, my goals, or my experience. It is the absolute worst! I pray and hope that in one year from now, I'll be starting the final semester of nursing school to become a registered nurse. Could all this change in an instant? Heck yes! But, as usual, I am trusting in God to lead me down the appropriate path. From moving home, trusting my gut, losing my littlest love and friends left and right, I have learned that this life isn't predictable at all!
So I am determined to achieve my goal of becoming a registered nurse. In the past, I have gotten ahead of myself by setting goals that I was not in the place to be setting. One step at a time as my mom would say. If I get a positive phone call tomorrow confirming I can reapply, I'll be ecstatic but it will bring a whole new set of obstacles in itself. I know all these changes in my plans have made me stronger, given me confidence in my trade, and made me appreciate things even more than I did four years ago. Here's to the future and it's unpredictability. To be continued..
..xobb
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