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Tropic Like it's Hot!

Oh Florida summers... Goodness, is it hot?!


Growing up in Fort Myers, you lived for Disney Original Movie marathons, ice cream, pool day and that rainy 3pm nap. That was life for us! After living in Central Florida for a little bit, I will say there is no better cure my Summer woes except for being in Fort Myers. Don't get me wrong, Mt Dora was beautiful but there is just something about my hometown!

This week was the second at the new dermatology job, I'm slowly but surely learning the lingo. I have been in the medical field 10 years, but this specialty has a language all it's own! It's hard to keep your confidence, this position is more hands on involving anesthesia and sutures, but I'll get there! I will say though, I truly despise being the "new girl". Everyone asks the same question, patients and peers are a tad nervous since you're a stranger and all they have to go off of for your experience is your word. It's intimidating but adds to your character all the same.

Today, I'm lying by my mom's pool and start reflecting on the essence of being the "new person". Whether it's new in town, to a job, in a relationship (friendship or romantic), it's a hurdle you must get over on your own. The unknowns, the expectations, and the butterflies happen in each but obviously a little different for the situation. So far this year, I have experienced happiness, disappointment, tragedy, spontaneity, the light at the end of the tunnel, and the excitement of something new with someone of comfort. I have learned so much about myself and how to grow, it makes me look forward to my future.

I will say a huge part of healing for me has been sunshine. My mama has always said that everything looks better tan, despite what I am learning at work, this is totally true for me. The familiarity of a bikini, the Florida sun, and a pool day truly calms my spirit. Good things happen in the sun, I mean you can't be in a bikini, lying by the pool and be mad! It just doesn't happen, unless you're the toddler being told to get out lol. I am trying to wade through new waters of independence, trying to shape my own person and learn from my past experiences all the same. I will say thus far I have learned to be quiet and observe, to trust your gut, and listen to advice. I used to be determined to make my own mistakes, pretty dumb huh! I wanted to experience it all, well I'm definitely past that!

This Summer started difficult but I look forward to more time in the sun learning and loving my life and those in it. I'm determined to focus on myself and love those around me so hard it hurts. I have always second guessed myself and trust the opinions of others. Lately, I've gone with my gut and, so far, I have loved every moment since that decision.

Happy Saturday, y'all!
..xobb
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