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Oops I Did it Again...



Happy Hump Day and thank the Lord this week is almost over!!! Work has been exciting yet overwhelming, I woke up today in disbelief that it was ONLY Wednesday. I'm absolutely loving my job, there have been some moments that have made it difficult, some painful, but all making it worth getting up every single day. I had my 90 day review today and it has inspired and motivated me for my future with the company. This all being said, that including enjoying my summer have attributed to the lack of posts, which then inspire this post.

The single life has been treating me well, I've learned an awful lot by enjoying my time to be free and independent. It helps having a close girlfriend in the same boat as me, we've been having the best summer thus far. This is the first time I've really allowed myself to stay single. In my dating history, I have been in a relationship constantly and now I'm seeing what that does to a soul. Suppresses you and gives you a constant feeling of needing to prove yourself.


I will say that the one thing I have learned is that I do not need to justify my actions to anyone. People have an opinion about absolutely everything from what you wear to what you post. I now realize that I don't have to give a reason to my rhyme, just doing what I want with my newfound freedom. Doing what you want within reason is so refreshing for me! For someone who has spent most of their adult life in the shadow of someone else, it allows you to finally do things without the pressure of someone else making comments of getting upset. Nope, I am doing what I am!


So what's next? Well my fellow single lady and I are currently looking for a place to get together, get ready for lash extensions and makeup galore with vodka on top!!! In all seriousness, this girl has helped me through so much recently. She puts things in perspective for me and allows me to snap out of my ridiculousness! I love quick and hard and she has her logical foot on the metaphorical brake reminding me who I am and what I worth. It has been the best being able to experience things with her!



This chapter is tough, as I have said in previous posts, the reality of where I should be in my head versus the actuality of my life stills gets me sometimes, especially working in OB/GYN and seeing happy couples starting their families. But obviously this is not my plan, got the point thanks God lol! I look forward to life I see in my mind, hoping this is all preparing me for whatever life throws at me next time. I know there is a reason for everything.


This girl is ready for a bubble bath and mask! Goodnight to all!

..xobb
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