In the last few months, I feel I have changed a lot toward the person I want to be for the rest of my life. I have learned many things the hardest way possible. I have fallen, gotten back up, and even if it has taken more time than I would have liked, I kept going. I learned about myself; my flaws, weaknesses and strengths. I have realized that I am can only be the best version of myself and strive to meet my goals. I have had people strike me down (metaphorically), lift me up, and teach me so many things.
Recently, I've changed my career path. Originally, I was heading towards a professional in the health care field and now, I am about a month away from beginning my real estate career. All these things are strange, exciting and nerve racking all at the same time. I've seen the person I could be and have been, and I hate her. I've learned from her and now, I know what I want and how I am going to get it. Will it go perfectly? No, never does. Why? Because I just have the goal and the plan but the play out will be out of my control. Could this all fall apart and I would be starting a square one? Sure, but that's the thrill.
God pressed something on my heart about two years ago. Move away from my security blanket and go into the unknown. I couldn't be happier that that opportunity found it's way to me. Everyday I wake up new, a little scared and I fight off some demons that most people have but ignore. Well, I face mine. My goals have changed as I've changed, people in my life have also changed. I guess, with the new year lingering, I feel electricity and anxiousness but in a good way for once. Not in a scared, sad way. I can't wait to get into this field, trip and fall and learn. I want to travel and see things. I want to be more accepting and meet new people. It took 28 years for me to realize that this is my life. Mine alone. I may have a good man, big chaotic family, and a decent job but the choices I make are mine alone and can't be used to inflict guilt any longer. Ready to stand on my own two feet.
Maybe you're struggling with the fork in your own personal road. Maybe you aren't sure what your motivation is. Mine is happiness and succeed, not having to stare at a negative income or terrible credit score any longer. Hopefully this rambling helped you see past the guilt and through to the other side where you can grow and strive for you. Not for others.
Recently, I've changed my career path. Originally, I was heading towards a professional in the health care field and now, I am about a month away from beginning my real estate career. All these things are strange, exciting and nerve racking all at the same time. I've seen the person I could be and have been, and I hate her. I've learned from her and now, I know what I want and how I am going to get it. Will it go perfectly? No, never does. Why? Because I just have the goal and the plan but the play out will be out of my control. Could this all fall apart and I would be starting a square one? Sure, but that's the thrill.
God pressed something on my heart about two years ago. Move away from my security blanket and go into the unknown. I couldn't be happier that that opportunity found it's way to me. Everyday I wake up new, a little scared and I fight off some demons that most people have but ignore. Well, I face mine. My goals have changed as I've changed, people in my life have also changed. I guess, with the new year lingering, I feel electricity and anxiousness but in a good way for once. Not in a scared, sad way. I can't wait to get into this field, trip and fall and learn. I want to travel and see things. I want to be more accepting and meet new people. It took 28 years for me to realize that this is my life. Mine alone. I may have a good man, big chaotic family, and a decent job but the choices I make are mine alone and can't be used to inflict guilt any longer. Ready to stand on my own two feet.
Maybe you're struggling with the fork in your own personal road. Maybe you aren't sure what your motivation is. Mine is happiness and succeed, not having to stare at a negative income or terrible credit score any longer. Hopefully this rambling helped you see past the guilt and through to the other side where you can grow and strive for you. Not for others.
Happy Monday!
..xobb
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