Blonde, Sweat & Wine

One thing I have a learned in my first 20-something years is that I have no control over the timing of my life events. At 25, I was carefree, in nursing school, single and having the time of my life with my best friends. Two weeks later on the night of my mom's birthday, I was hit with the reality mack truck. I was diagnosed with type one diabetes, 4 months after my younger brother had the same diagnosis. I was determined to jump back into life despite a terminal but manageable life sentence. After a week long hospitalization and a total life change, I tried to fall back into the routine and failed miserably. After a kidney infection and more bad news, I failed and withdrew from nursing school. I was heartbroken. I was angry, I just wanted a "normal" life. I saw my sister marry her high school sweetheart and have the most beautiful family. I saw my best friends get engaged and blissfully fall into matrimony. Friends graduate and have successful careers. I was enviou...

As you may or may have not noticed, I have been MIA for the last few months. Starting the new year, events happened that have drastically changed my life. There were lots of tears, tests, and challenges but all resulted in Brad and I ending our relationship. No I don't need a shoulder to cry on, I am doing well. The hardest part was deciding on whether or not to move back to Fort Myers, granted, this decision has been decided and I will continue on once everything has been solidified. The best and worst part of ending any kind of relationship, is that it forces you to re-evaluate you as a person, the you that you want to be in the future, and that can be really painful. You will learn who to trust, who you know you won't ever see again, and who really is just in it for the juicy details. I am lucky to say that, even though no break up is easy, I'm a strong Southern woman who will trudge on! I realized quickly in the midst of moving on that I have always put myself last ...